You would not understand what is within me. I am not crazy to get mad over a very little things. If you were to ask me what the hell that make me soo mad. The 1st things is yes that bloody idiot was informed that the will be some takes yet u are not prepare.It was not only you..Out of all only 1or2 was sort of prepare yet none of us is boder.You decide on somethings and give instuction as u pls..ehk! Who the hell are you. Individual decision will be only taken in emergency cases. the other time u was not inform because of u are not there and is the person in charge to tell you forget about it. AKU DA TAK PERECAYA KAU TAPI WALAU BAGAIMANA PON AKU TAK AKAN GIVE UP ON SESIAPA ATAU APA-APA PON..yang baek datang dari allah s.w.t. ang yang buruk datang daripada aku..

Everytime when i look..
Tears gather in my eyes..
My hearts feel the sudden loss..
My head is full of queastion..

But there's nothing i can do

about it..
Nothinq..Absolutely nothinq...
I can only wish and hope for..
But Expec No result..

Now that all are bz working..
Who the hell i'm gonna txt?
What the hell i'm gonna do?

OR is it me who are always too free?
I don really like it..
But myan it is easy to get over it..

Now my  heart start to question..

And my brain srart to think..
yet the only thing that come up is..
SO? Whats next?
and then what gonna happen?
when get the conclusion..
And things i'm so worried about is

What if heart/s  are broken?
It will builting up to a nitemare..
HOW?

I don know why but i feel it. i feel the pain of losing someone. but i am not losing anyone currently. but because of the place i am tat day remind me alot of wat i usually do. As im w8ing for my baby at the interchange i saw tis person running and a glimps of this bus number caught my eyes. that is the very bus i take to ur place aka our usual place.and then at the dropping point theres this very bus from ur place. u know evrytime i pass by ur usual place i always wish i could see you. not becose i wan to talk to u or what but to see ur face, yes all i wanted is to see ur face. That goes the same way as how bad i wan to see my mom face. 15 oct that the date that i think i have the chance but i have to let go. is like being under ur void deck and ur number in my fon.. but i cant, If so i can then what happen next? 

Now i have been thinging the question hing le asked me..
well i imply the question on the final year project..
Seriously, i have no confidence in scoring this..
this is what we have brain storm and discuss..
if the other have passion on this project..
y do i have doubt in this..
Or is it i was to afraid in losing
something that really mean alot to me..
What if this time i fail?
no no no..
they have to move on and so am i..
of we should have back up?
Or is it because i start to lose trust on
my own groupmate..
How now?
3 mth left?
to proceed or turn now?
how am i gonna tell them whats in
my head now when they have put in
so much time and effort?
myan!!
how i wish i go go to my wise advisor
 ENG HONG LE
for his point of view..
but i'm too afraid to ask..
k!
i must ask him..
PUTRI!!
U CAN DO THIS!

Yesterday it have been a fairly bad day for me..
Due to i own action,the day before i drink a lot
of carbonated drink, i had a bad cramps and were
force to follow my grands parent for relatuve visiting.
and wats worst, my cuzzy was sick and she was like
one dieing girl.  IRRITS!  its not because she sick
but becos my grandny will be too naggy..  RIMAS!
Today, mood swing. i hate it myself.  i told my granny 
tell my grandad NOT to buy me breakfast, but just as
i finish bathing,my granny say "Go eat ur Nasi Lemek
grandad bought u".. like wtf rite?  then yaya still like dieing..
the irritating part is .. when i say i'm not sharin bed ..i mean it..
so jolly well stay out of my bed..i lay down a bed for her so y the
hell she is on my bed?  my most crucial time is the moment i wake
up till few min after breakfast, if i'm telling u afact don deny it if u
don know. don scream at me when i'm not in a wrong, and don keep
ordering me.. if you do.. i wont be talking to you the whole day cos i
hate it..and i really do.. 

If i can have smurf i will wan it 2..
1 in green and one in red..
the green one will be wearing white spec..
the red one will be in black spec..
they will wear black pants and cap..

and look very cute too!

both will be very swit and have difference personnelity..
the green one will be on my left pocket and the red one on the right.
I'll bring both every where i go..
but promise not to peep when i was in the restroom..
i'll protect them with all my might and never let anyone take u away..
;)

I hate when i on the comp..

the freacking comp haven load finish..
my dad will " manda,go to my fb profile"
while viewing..
and my grandad will "Manda, check my mail"
and then with in 15min my granmom will "Manda!!!! Go to sleep now!!"

then i on comp for wat sia..
for u all??
EHK!
FUCK OFF la!

I LOVE MY BABY!!!

HIS SCEDULE..

weekday: sch then evening work..
weekN: work..

holiday...
i got no idea..
#_#

nari betol nyer fcuk up uh..
kejot org bagon da tkder cara...
da la mlm2 bising..
pukul 3 pagi pekik2 psl lipas msk telinga..
da tuhh sowo tlg bey memerintah..
part memerintah tuhh tk la kesah snagt..
tapi part bbual tuhh..
peh binggit..
tkdercaralangsong..

ehk! kiter nie org mlayu la..
bahasa menunjukkan bangsa tau..
tapi biler dok kemas pon asek membebel jek..
bosan uh babe!

and yes ..
klu org tanye tuhh dok pk dulu jawapan nyer..
jgn ikot sedap mulut jek..
biler da kene balik dgn jawapan sendiri..
malu sendiri..
mengamok2..
Bodoh! salah mulut sendiri uh..
asl org ckp tk nk dgr..
biler org buat theory membangkang..
amek la padahnyer..

"kecik jangan disangka anak,

besar jgn disangka bapak.."

walaupun kau mengatakan

bahawasanya kau telah terlebih

dahulu merasakan pahit manis kehidun..
theory itu sudah berbeza di zaman ini..
kecelakaaan tidak berlaku dgn tiba2..
tetapi kerana perbuatan sendiri.

Don ask me why i love him..
tat my secret..
Don bother thinking abt taking him..
so go do ur reasearch..
:P

HE came 1st in my live and left right after he change..

then he was there all along..
and still with me forever thru..

NOW

i have got him..
yes i <3 him..
but not forgetting Riz..
i owe him to watch "breaking dawn" together..
i still remember that..
that are the for guy fren that enter my life..
;)

LISTEN!

A smoker is not a bad person.

They can be better then you..

Is just because they smoke u call them bad..

then what do u call a drug dealler?

then a snach theif?

what about a killer?

think before said..

and hell yeah..

teacher?

they are always stressing on school rules..

so wateverlasey..

:P

Sbar putri..
Dier bz..
dier bz..
nenex kau kn saket..
bab tuhh mcm tuhh..
t lame2 ok la tuhh..
relax..relax..
:)

My ending of the week wasnt tat awesome..
i have to teasure it .
my 2 yr time in ite is almost up..
i was soo can w8 about graduating yet
i felt that it is too fast for us to graduate..
:P

If i could tell something without saying..
if i could know without being inform..
if i could meet without being planned..
If i could have without being own..
If i could,I would,,

We got to meet twice today..
b4 and after sch..
kan best klu slalu mcm tuhh..
tapi tkper..
today was an awesome day..
My jaa nu talk and laught withh me like we used to be..

my syg was awesome..
and i have enouf for today..

my throats irrits me..
my head mcm soyal..
and my prot enyibuk..
so i wan ma rest..
hope my tomolo is better..
:*
anak arman <3 anak salleh..
:D

I hope tomorrow will be juat fine.Get to meet ma baby,then ma jaa nu.and my scandals..
WEEEE!!!!best nyer..tk sabar nk bsk..:)
toodles!

Sucks!!!

All i can say todaay is "THIS SUCKS!".It have been almost 4 days  that you have been so near yet far apart.  I don is it just me or wat? You are return back to the old u? What have i done? If u aren't mad at me why u don wanna talk to me? Where is ur usual self? Where is the old you? The idiotic you who always irritates me? Where does that best fren of mine go? I was shock that even for a 1/8 full bottle of mango tea and a handfull of powder that was sprayed on you ,u got that mad on me ? i just wanna make ur bithday fell more celebrated as i only know it on a short notice. You wont go around showing black face to everyone just becos you are angry to one girl.As i told you if that girl is someone you love,feel free to come to me to ask for help. i will be more then willing to help. I'm just afaid that i will lose such a bestfren like you. Regardless of watever it is.u are my best fren.as ong aswe can be. , don avoid me reqardless of anthing.I'll be looking forward to be meeting you on monday.

If you are not happy with me, scold me.
If you are not satisfied with me, bash me.
If you dislike me,change me.
But please .. Please .. don avoid me.
Its hurts.

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see ya clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
So please don't there's
No need to complicate cause our time is short this
Oh this oh this is our fate, I'm yours

-1year 7month 6days 

-9month  1week 5days

-1week and still accounting..

I am still who i am who i used to be and the one who u see me the very 1st time.

Sometimes i wish that there is no such thing called secret yet not everything we need to noe.but it was you that im concern.u love to keep things to urself and nobody.nobody could lie in the eyes.but when i ask u would wan to say anything.u cant even a fake smile.u noe is ur smile i have been looking forward to see cos is that smile that i have been seeing almost a single day.never i mean to subtitude him as you.trust me your place in me and his place are different.you are like a bestest friends to me.no girl like me can survived without a best friend in life a part from their beloved boifie.

Best friend, someone (singular) with whom one shares the strongest possible kind of friendship, Friendship is a form of interpersonal relationship generally considered to be closer than association, although there is a range of degrees of intimacy in both friendships and associations. Friendship and association can be thought of as spanning across the same continuum. The study of friendship is included in the fields of sociology, social psychology, anthropology, philosophy, and zoology. Various academic theories of friendship have been proposed, among which are social exchange theory, equity theory, relational dialectics, and attachment styles.

A person who loves,Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.^[1] In philosophical context, love is a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection. Love is central to many religions, as in the Christian phrase, "God is love" or Agape in the Canonical gospels.^[2] Love may also be described as actions towards others (or oneself) based on compassion, or as actions towards others based on affection.^[3]

Yay like finally make a new bloq..
hope now it would be better..
:D

so it have been 5 days ramadan..
Quite long day..

sleep as usual yet wake up so early..
can bee seen in the eyes..
yet nothing will stop anyone from

choosing wat to do..
:D