I don know why but i feel it. i feel the pain of losing someone. but i am not losing anyone currently. but because of the place i am tat day remind me alot of wat i usually do. As im w8ing for my baby at the interchange i saw tis person running and a glimps of this bus number caught my eyes. that is the very bus i take to ur place aka our usual place.and then at the dropping point theres this very bus from ur place. u know evrytime i pass by ur usual place i always wish i could see you. not becose i wan to talk to u or what but to see ur face, yes all i wanted is to see ur face. That goes the same way as how bad i wan to see my mom face. 15 oct that the date that i think i have the chance but i have to let go. is like being under ur void deck and ur number in my fon.. but i cant, If so i can then what happen next? 

Now i have been thinging the question hing le asked me..
well i imply the question on the final year project..
Seriously, i have no confidence in scoring this..
this is what we have brain storm and discuss..
if the other have passion on this project..
y do i have doubt in this..
Or is it i was to afraid in losing
something that really mean alot to me..
What if this time i fail?
no no no..
they have to move on and so am i..
of we should have back up?
Or is it because i start to lose trust on
my own groupmate..
How now?
3 mth left?
to proceed or turn now?
how am i gonna tell them whats in
my head now when they have put in
so much time and effort?
myan!!
how i wish i go go to my wise advisor
 ENG HONG LE
for his point of view..
but i'm too afraid to ask..
k!
i must ask him..
PUTRI!!
U CAN DO THIS!

Yesterday it have been a fairly bad day for me..
Due to i own action,the day before i drink a lot
of carbonated drink, i had a bad cramps and were
force to follow my grands parent for relatuve visiting.
and wats worst, my cuzzy was sick and she was like
one dieing girl.  IRRITS!  its not because she sick
but becos my grandny will be too naggy..  RIMAS!
Today, mood swing. i hate it myself.  i told my granny 
tell my grandad NOT to buy me breakfast, but just as
i finish bathing,my granny say "Go eat ur Nasi Lemek
grandad bought u".. like wtf rite?  then yaya still like dieing..
the irritating part is .. when i say i'm not sharin bed ..i mean it..
so jolly well stay out of my bed..i lay down a bed for her so y the
hell she is on my bed?  my most crucial time is the moment i wake
up till few min after breakfast, if i'm telling u afact don deny it if u
don know. don scream at me when i'm not in a wrong, and don keep
ordering me.. if you do.. i wont be talking to you the whole day cos i
hate it..and i really do.. 

If i can have smurf i will wan it 2..
1 in green and one in red..
the green one will be wearing white spec..
the red one will be in black spec..
they will wear black pants and cap..

and look very cute too!

both will be very swit and have difference personnelity..
the green one will be on my left pocket and the red one on the right.
I'll bring both every where i go..
but promise not to peep when i was in the restroom..
i'll protect them with all my might and never let anyone take u away..
;)

I hate when i on the comp..

the freacking comp haven load finish..
my dad will " manda,go to my fb profile"
while viewing..
and my grandad will "Manda, check my mail"
and then with in 15min my granmom will "Manda!!!! Go to sleep now!!"

then i on comp for wat sia..
for u all??
EHK!
FUCK OFF la!

I LOVE MY BABY!!!