I guess i'm not allow to feel..

Written to be scolded ..

Living because of having to..

Worst to be with..

Well the reason im smilling is not im happy...

But i dont wan you to ask...

"The truth is you don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed." – Eminem

From the bottom of my heart.

I love him
and i must be sure of that..
;)

Should i or should i not?

The feel is not gone yet..
What should i do?
I'm afraid i'm being selfish ..

Howie Day

The sky used to be flawless & the cloud seems to be so wonderful.
But now everything changes ..
I have lost a wonderful fren i used to have..
and i'm afraid to lose my lover.
It felt like a concurrent activity is happening ..
Being killed and getting killed..
yes being with him makes me forget about everything..
But silence make me remember everything..
Dear time please be got to me ..
make it sharp and quick..
I believe its less painful that way..